boy really love girl

recently .. there have been reports of adultery .. you know .. like last week .. man kill wife when his wife turns unfaithful to him. and there's few days ago .. reports of wife doing funny things behind their husband.

mmm .. ok .. well, im not against our local female .. neither am i going to criticize and condemn our local girls .. NO.

its just my point of view from .. well, a local boy.. plain, simple and naive boy .. made in Singapore!

when we were young .. shy .. whenever we come close contact with the sweet looking girl, you know in primary school .. and boys would always do stupid things to attract her attention. in the canteen .. purposely buy what she buys .. sit opposite of her .. then when she's sitting with her friend .. purposely the boy would run here run there .. one glance would make the boy's day.

then .. come sec sch .. the bad boys would come in .. teach you a trick or two .. how to woo this girl .. and there's where .. the simple boy would turn complicated .. all the sex sex .. boobs boobs .. pretty girl thing all come in. then every pretty girl would look like a sex siren to him.

and there's where all the BGR happens .. first crush .. first hold hand .. first hug .. first boyfriend .. first girlfriend. and who can ever forget that .. yes. remember your first kiss?
good or bad .. its your first kiss ... the day where you discover love .. not parental love

but ..

love between a boy and a girl.

of course .. things are definitely not just 100% pure and innocent .. w
well .. thats bullshit.

in comes .. backstabbing .. 3rd party .. fights over bf or gf, and yes yes .. lets be real honest. SEX
most people basically become non-virgin .. in sec sch days..

and when we .. boys .. turn to men .. is neither smooth sailing too.

NS .. girlfriend run away.
You work .. the girlfriend find someone better ..
You work hard .. slog hard for a better future.. she complain no time to acc her.
You try to be a good man .. you're no fun no excitment.
You want to commit .. she dont
You low educational level .. well, its a matter of time something happen
You lack of ambition .. no future
You full of ambition .. you talk too much

main reason? .. ir-reconcilable differences. simply put 性格不合.
standard reason?

we wonder why people from venus would treat guys this way?
is it materialistic or practical? why the sudden jump of character and thinking? during school days its lovey dovey .. when time comes they go out to the society .. touch & feel money .. see lots of people .. then "WAH LAH!"

sometimes its really hard to be a good man .. on one hand girls want a man to have a successful career .. a solid future, and on the other hand .. girls dont seem to be satisfied, why dont girls think of the sacrifices we made?

maybe girls say .. they like to diversify .. got more better choice the better! can spread the risk mah. at least they wont crumble so bad when they find out this guy is not the right choice .. OH! i say .. clever risk management. smart!! indeed!

well, maybe to a certain extent.

think of it .. if people done their homework dilligently .. just spend a little time to communicate and understand one another more .. focus and concentrate on just one, the only one. well, diversify really doesnt make any more sense .. isnt it??

girls want a 70% good guy + 30% jerk.
yes .. it promise them excitment fun .. but when this guy sees a future .. and he goes devoted to this girl .. how to maintain this equation?
then worst still. girls want the best of both worlds .. they dont want to miss out the fun! and thats where all the problem lies..

its something like a car ride ..

this car can bring a girl to her destination safe and sound .. no worries .. or whatsoever.
but some girls like the exciting way .. they prefer a sports car .. travelling at high speed.. cornering at 100km/hr .. OH Yes! it sure is exciting, isnt it. if they dont like this car .. they're free to change to another car, how bout 3, 5 or 10 times? they can change as much cars as they like! change until they reach their destination.

isnt this is what life's all about? choices! fun & excitment!! you live for the moment!!

but how long can it last? looking at the other girl happily .. enjoying the smooth ride .. no worries... well-taken care off.. throughout the whole journey.

while the other girl? well, maybe some people like to change cars.. but wait a minute isnt this something like a "any-rider" scenerio?

think of it .. this may be a 10 year scenerio or more.. we will grow old one day. who likes a lonely life? who wants to live only for this moment and regret later?

who dont want a companion to age with? i mean .. honestly speaking!

well, of course .. not all local girls are like this. definitely! i have faith in our girls.

but, do appreciate what your "he" do for you. provided he's really "THE" guy, of cos!

cos being a s'porean guy is not easy.

well, honestly .. i really dont want we, local guy to be flipping through the photo album some day down the road.

we still need genuine stuff! not hybrid products. if local girls dont love local man. then who will love us?

or maybe we like to be invaded? as history is going to prove us correct again??

well, when boy really love girl. he really means it. do appreciate him.ok?

QUEEN OF HEARTS

A picture really speaks a million words.. isn't it? isn't she lovely?

why are you so beautiful .. why must you be so lovely .. why must you be so pretty
why are you so adorable .. why your image keep running through my head ..

why you keep smiling at me? and why you keep looking at me?

why am i still looking at you? why am i still smiling at you?

why aint you here with me? why i'm still here alone?

why must you captivate me so much.

why nothing and nothing else can replace you

why must you be so important to me.

why must you be the queen of my heart

till now .. i still love you

easter day story

Good Friday is a holy day celebrated by Christian on the Friday before Easter. It commemorates the cruxification of Jesus at Calvary.

basically, it is to celebrate the resurrection of Jesus on the 3rd day after his death.

so why am i talking about Easter day here?

cos my friend had a memorable easter day! 4 years ago ..

i remember he told me ......

it was a fine and sunny friday .. he went to met his girlfriend. his girlfriend was beautiful .. and he was not bad either .. that day .. they dressed .. to watch a play.. about easter day.

the guy was not bad and the girl was beautiful .. 2 lovely .. young couple..

i smile at my friend .. he *blush* .. and he continue ..

they took a shutter bus .. to the church .. along the journey.. it was a bumpy ride. As the journey was rather long .. his girlfriend felt giddy.
he was worried .. and he dont know what to do .. he held her hand tight and rest her head on his shoulder .. and assure her that everything would be fine.

"dont worry .. you would be ok!" and he kissed her .. with that .. he .. always by the side of his girlfriend .. throughout the 1+hr journey.

clasping her hand tightly and never would he dare to let it go..

with these words .. my dear friend started to get emotional .. but he choked back and again .. he continued.. he said ..

they reached the destination .. both of them were both rather freshmans to this big grand church.. they saw friends .. they made friends .. and they went into the theatre .. seated and await for the show to start.

with that .. my friend .. uncontrollably .. he choked back. i console him .. we had a cigarette together.. pearly tears rolled and sparkle along his check .. that strong guy i know .. he fell.
i looked at his teary eyes, i saw despair .. but yet .. i know he was strong .. he tried to assure me, he was.
well, my friend was unable to tell me about the show .. all he said was .. it was a good show!

but he do remember what happen next ..

after the show .. they went shopping .. in a big mall at the western area. he still can remember ... they went to breaktalk, buy then share a bread. they were young then .. and money was sacred.. but i thought that was sweet.

well, that day .. his girlfriend had some money .. and they walked past this japan photoshop .. where this big money eating machines would take pictures of whatever was in front of them.. made in japan machine.

she pull him all the way into the machine .. he refused .. but was unable to resist .. his girlfriend's persistence.. she was so cute, so adorable and the sweetest thing he could ever find.

my friend put up a strong smile .. i know he was in pain .. i put my arms around him ..

and that day .. they took a picture..

a very memorable picture. that was the most beautiful picture .. he had ever took in his life. he swear by it. the girl was so pure .. so innocent .. the look in her eyes.
i saw the picture .. i too agree that it was the best picture my friend ever took and i swear by it.

the background. the colour. that innocence between 2 young couple.

for years his girlfriend think otherwise. but that picture was treasure to my friend.

it was easter day .. 4 years later .. it is easter day again ..

they are not together anymore.

my friend ... he couldnt take it anymore ..

as he went to wash his face .. he looked up the mirror .. and there i was ..

good or bad .. i would never leave you, friend .. i told him ...

happy easter .. 2006

and

happy easter 2006 to you too ..

theatre of dreams

when i was 13 .. i saw my malay friend played the guitar .. it was magical .. super impressive.. and that is what im gonna to do .. yes .. play the guitar ..

when i was 15 .. sec 3 camp is round the corner .. quick quick .. muist learn quickly .. have to impressive during the camp fire .. hahaa.. but sad .. on that day itself .. my teacher confiscate my guitar .. balls man!!

i started with oasis .. then beyond .. the metallica .. then everything .. no boundary it was only rock rock and metal metal and more rock & metal.

impressing girls was my initiate aim .. haha .. typical boys mah! but too bad .. as good as i may be .. i havent perform to any girls yet .. not including .. yes .. im sorry.. its my fault. hope i will have the chance one day.

me .. kiat .. fred .. robin .. the robin left and hao came .. we played for 10 years already.

yes .. 10 years .. a decade.

remember the sec 4 teacher's day concert ?? oh yes .. that was our day .. we rocked the school .. and that was only then we fulfilled our dream ... haha... 16 yrs old .. a 16 yr old dream come true.

nothing beats a non-stop 2hr jamming session .. not even sex. it doesnt even come close.

whatever it is .. this will be our theatre of dreams ..

MRT

sometimes ... have you people ever when waiting for the MRT to come, observe whats around you?

you look in the mirror .. you see yourself .. ok, you look good, well-groom, very presentable .. pretty or handsome, either 1.
next to your left .. you saw a couple.. 2 teenagers.. hugging .. cuddling each other, so lovely .. so happy .. so sweet. you smile. yes. you smile.
to your right. you saw a ah-pek, old, rugged and tired. the wrinkle on his face are his medals. yes. he looks tired. his eyes .. non-chanting .. kept staring at blank .. his eyes .. emotionless. looking at nothing else .. but straight.
before you know it .. everywhere is flooded with people.. from all walks of life. businessman, waiter, civil servant, salesman .. mother with child .. students.

you look at the mirror. oh yes.. thats the truth. you tell yourself. Im alone.

in the train .. you see people .. standing .. sitting.. *ding dong* oh, its Kallang Station. off goes 2 china-woman .. in comes a pregnant lady ..
the pregnant lady looks around .. everywhere is flooded with people .. and so much so .. what a coincidence.. most of the sitters are sleeping .. some reading the news.
while some foreign people .. dont even know what it means..

suddenly .. there's this lady .. stand up and smile at the pregnant lady .. such chemistry .. they know each others intention .. i look at the door .. oh, theres the old ah-pek .. accepting his fate .. since coming in. waiting for his destination.. and in the mean time .. stare blank.

eh .. i saw 2 .. maybe 3 or even more couple .. looking eye to eye smiling .. talking .. sometimes blushing to one another .. mostly teenagers or young adults. love is in the air.

i smile ..

then i look at the far side of the carriage .. i saw a couple with their toddler .. maybe 1 or 2 years old .. so lovely .. so cute .. his sparkling eyes .. scanning around the carriage .. HELLO baby! welcome to the world. this is your mirror. take your choice. you choose who you wanna be.

suddenly .. the lady near the door smile at the toddler .. then there's this teenager couple whispering .. refering to the toddler .. in an instant .. all the female .. mostly the female's attention are at the toddler .. well, you dont have to be a singapore idol to be a star!

then there's this lady .. late twenties .. think she work in a bank .. judging from her uniform .. she look at the toddler .. she smile .. then she look out the window.. there's the night geylang scenery. she look at the neon brighten sky.. in an instant her mind wonder ..

before i knew it .. its almost 1 or maybe 2 stops away from my destination .. i look at the sky .. i look out to the east coast area.

i remember 1 year ago .. i'm doing the same thing .. looking at toddler .. smiling .. like the lady .. looking at the sky .. my mind wonder .. full of happiness .. the future is bright. i saw the same old corner at the door .. oh yes.. i used to stand there .. our own private corner .. i was always hoping the train to take its time to reach the destination .. hoping time could just stop for us.

i look on .. i look inside the train .. the train is 2/3 full .. *ding dong* .. the same song inside my ipod .. some jay chou song .. as usual .. its that song .. again ... whenever, i reach my destination.

the toddler is still there .. the couples are still there .. the old man is still there .. the lady is not looking outside the window anymore .. and yes .. the same old corner will always be there.

i walk out .. i stop .. i look back .. the train pass me by ..

i saw me .. 1 year back .. pass by my destination.. the train is gone .. bringing away my memories..

i realised .. this year is 2006 .. im 23 .. and time has passed me by.

tomorrow .. maybe, the ah-pek may not be in the same train .. all the couple will not be in the same train .. the lady would miss the train .. the toddler maybe in the childcare centre ..

but one thing .. that will never change is the same old corner .. the same old private space.. our laughter.

and most important of all ... my memories.

with that .. i left the station .. im not half the man i used to be. oh yes.. there's a shadow hanging over me .. and yesterday came suddenly..

you finished the next part ..

Ai-Investor Times

so .. this is a small little scenerio i come out with ..

==== The Ai-Investors Times ====

Today, we will be reviewing the case study of the 3 hottest stock Chip B, Chip JY, Chip CP and a emerging chip Ro

Chip JY used to be the hottest Chip of all in late 90s. Since then, investors has been enjoying a series of benefits. However, in 1999, JY's managment has decide to re-focus its core business, it then decide to be de-list in the local market and shift its business to a foreign market. This sudden move of moving to a greener pasture shocked the investors. However, they are still waiting for it to come back to the local market.

In 2002 Chip B, with its aggressive marketing and using a friendly image is the hottest bargain in town.. but in 2005 due to its poor managment and a series of unsuccessful investing attempts. Investors has beginning to question whether are they making the right choice? In 2006, saw the collapse of Chip B as investors run out of patience and saw no improvement in the managment.

In between, investors has been burned by Tech Stock Chip CP, as its price has been blowing hot and cold. I urged investor to have a good knowledge of this stock before investing to prevent your fingers burnt.

This year, we saw a emerging stock Ro, as the stock to watch. It's organised mangement and convincing marketing strategy, promising high returns. Investors has been flocking into it, like honey to bees. As Ro is a new business, its performance is yet to be seen. I urged investors to take a caution approach to this emerging stock.

* Broker's Advice *

Sometimes to earn quick buck, investing in a exciting and emerging market is a good choice. But be well-informed and armed with a good knowledge of these stocks. If not, prepared to be burnt.In doubt, invest in the old good stocks you know. If the stock is out in "cold" for too long, then maybe give it a miss. But if the managment is willing to change and re-structure, promising to give investors a much better return, why not giving it a second look?



well, its just a small scenerio .. i come out with. You understand means you understand .. you dont means you dont .. and pls dont ask me .. thank you.

the market is so unpredictable .. so i just have to wait.

my virgin post

oh hi, never thought 1 fine day, i would actually do a blog.. haha..

hi friends .. surprise and surprise. How are you people? good i guess..
give me a ring to show that you're alive ok?? =D

anyway, this year has been ups and downs for me .. well, shan't elaborate much.

after so many years, im back to the world where all men came from.. as a VIP member.
- THE BACHELOR'S CLUB - .. sounds cool? .. well, it is.

its a different feeling .. you know. the " HI BRYAN!! WOOH! WELCOME BACK! AFTER 4 YEARS MAN! LOOK WHAT YOU MISSED!!! " as usual.
However, things are different.

you know .. the bachalors happenings .. the pubs .. the clubs .. the gals .. the $$ .. the freedom .. and the best of all things.. no responsibility .. no strings attached. though it may sound like hell huh. but .. well, thats the idea. you live for only today!

bachelors ideology .. " play while you can, you only young once " wooh, so much for all the fun.

however .. as much as this is true. but there are some of us out there who doesnt go by this rule or should i say .. "activity". there are some good guys there. and thats why you got good boyfriends and good husband isnt it? haha. of course .. reciprocal .. you also have playboys and womanizers.. both extremes. where you do stand my friends.

many months has passed. I in my 9mth in NS. time flies.. and im nearer and nearer to my ORD ( Operational Ready Date ) date. well, in fact NS is not a bad thing after all. i mean .. really. In the army, you realised how important some things are. which we all the time took for granted. things like .. time, family, freedom (wkends), friends and ya... your love ones .. gf.
next year May, im out of the army. served my due and im gonna FxxKed off from it. after that its hardwork, to pursue my ultimate dream.

another great thing about the army is that, i know lots of good friends there.. people of the same wavelength as me. ya. we went through thick and thin. you know who you are. my friend.

mmm .. some of you might wonder .. why my title is me & love & the world.
well, first thing is .. im starting to love myself and pampering myself. as for love, its something which you know, you know you dont want it, but at the end of the day you HAVE to have it. love it or hate it. we need to love, someone. your parents or maybe.. ya again, your love ones. I suck at this love game. but, slowly, starting to understand something .. will it come back again, i dont know .. and .. whatever. but anyway .. whatever.
as for the world. reality. frankly speaking, for the past years. reality has never really defeated me. as in, i always accept it or i knew it was coming. i was always ready for reality.

• i stay back in sec sch, ya repeat.
• i got into bad company when young.
• financial problems
• family problems

i never blink an eye. i was always expecting it and facing it bravely. true enough.. everything was solved eventually, but that was through a lot of pondering and understanding and communicating and getting it done!

But never did i expect it to come killing me .. so hard. i was crushed. i was destroyed. never did i expect reality to hit me so hard. to the point that, i was destroyed. yeah. he caught me.

now. ya, i did a reality check. okay. not so bad. finally understand something. i wont say thank you to you for letting me fall and stand .. but .. but i wouldnt mind. falling again and standing up again. hahaha.. of cos, i got my ankle guard and knee guard with me. thats for sure.

the next time round. i'm well prepared.

so much for my virgin post.