me & love & the world

" your smile will always be within my deepest soul. thou shan't remember the bad .. but embrace my good.. your smile will never leave my heart and I will always be there if you need to. i love you "

Thursday, October 29, 2009

bachelors and bachelorettes (Fur Elise)

Looking at the bright lights, the enormous building structure is more or less in place. It was massive and gigantic. For 1year plus, this area is bustling with life, trucks with tonnes of materials were going in and out endlessly, tiny ant-like human beings swarmed the whole site; and the promise was to changed the skyline and the economical value of my country - forever.

1 year ago, travelling along the road, i was tired. my weary eyes, i looked at the infrastructure then the skies; "woh" i though to myself, bustling with life and when completed promises alot! Its potential to our country is enormous and is rather sure to be one of the sparkling jewel of the world! .. while mine is no where in sight.

Now; today, same road, same infrastructure i'm looking at, same surroundings, same timing .. But feelings are abit different this time ..

One thing for sure, time has changed and i'm better than where i am 1year ago. Though i'm still weary but things have certainly changed for the better; the picture and plans that i had in mind then .. have all came true.

*YEAH!*

Well, someone told me that singlehood is wonderful! It represents freedom, carefree and no restrictions and no obligations to who-so-ever. Pretty true!? Single but not available, is just another term for "I'm happy and now please get lost!"

Managing your own finances, we can own and buy whatever we want! Routine shoppings on weekends, going for an overseas holidays twice per year, always wanted to own that continental car? get and own a bachelor's or bachelorette's pad!! You saved and spend whatever you earned! No need to report your finances to another person; and talking about .. sharing?

Think of it .. isn't that great? Kinda..

Doing things whatever and whenever or even on an ad-hoc basis is what one would term as freedom and freedom or personal space is priceless!

Freedom to spend more time with friends, going for late night movies, going for a night out in clubs, pubs or ktv lounges. Making more friends and having more funs!

This is YOUTH, and doesn't youth represents fun & laughter, energetic, living for now and no regrets - you live for today and for yourself and no-one else! It's about experimenting life!

Life is short play hard and now thats life! Enjoying youth at its best - to the very maximum.

Getting attached, being hitched and getting married is just a committment, they say. Love fades eventually at some period of time, when love fades and being together is nothing but a habit; what we have is a big big ugly mess.

Pretty screwed up isn't it?? Being single is like having an all-access pass to everywhere while getting married is like you're only restricted to this Area A; exceeding the area is a crime! And mind you, it is not just so simple as trespassing. Alot are at stake.

SO .. isn't it just as good as being single? and calling yourself a bachelor or bachelorette?? no strings attached, self -willingly or co-habited .. isn't this a better idea? why tied up yourself and get suffocated and losing one's freedom???

Grave digging and sucide act.

Then come in reports on adultery and divorce .. So much for love and happily loving and being together ?!

When the thought of going over the red tape excites and you're being lured over; oh well, love goes out of the window, bringing along faithful and trustworthy, the oath taken years back is nothing but a laughing joke!

So much for compromising, understanding and being thoughtful to one another! Like what they said in econs 101 "finance greed is when long term profit is blinded by short term gains, and rationality is thrown out the window"

Human nature like how Adam secretly ate the apple in Eden's garden will keep repeating itself; and the demonic serpent lives inside us all; the world is Eden's Garden!

Of course there're reports of everlasting love, but again you asked. Will I ? Can I ? Will it be me ? All funny questions appeared, kinda scrutinizing yourself. How bout I say insecure then?

The truth is that you and I jolly well know that times changed and a everlasting and forever love is fast becoming fairy tale like. Being together nowadays is not love, but a commitment. And our generation X or Y is not like the previous, our dad and mum's generation.

And having just pure commitment is very scary when not keep in check on a regular basis! It is like a lock with no keys; and one is struggling to break free when the commitment period ends - All hells break loose!!

But all is not lost! Probably peppering commitment with love, garnishing it with a few hugs and kisses and then iced it up with loving and do-able promises; lastly warpped it all up nicely with a sincered heart!

Love will then grow ..... or does it not? HaHaHa .. only time will tell ~


To all: Good Luck w Blessings. + love (爱 很简单)


PS. Love at the end still supersedes all. Being in love is the best feeling a human being can ever get. Though times have changed and things complicated, keeping love at its most basic, pure and simplified form then can it be everlasting, like a vantage watch or a vantage wine.

Love is not just there. It has to be created! Through hardwork, through actions, communication and understanding and always finding things to create new love. Experimenting life together, being together through thick and thin. Communicating and compromising with a smile.

Love is the most power energy and is the most wonderful emotions one can experienced. It creates and breeds life; provides neverlasting energy. And on the other hand, spoilt love creates hate. Hatred and jealousy destroys everything.

People who are in loved. Friends who are in loved and are getting married or have already tied the knot. My Heartfelt blessings to you!

Cheers ~ always with a smile !

Friday, October 02, 2009

Love is all around

The sun never sets and the stars don't shine, the clouds covers the skies and the rain starts to pour. The lightling strikes across; the thunder rumbles and shakes the entire skies. When finally the storm moves on and rainbows flashes across the skies; the pot of gold will sparkle bright under the morning light. Dawn will bring the morning light.

It has been a season of love. Oh well ..

My best pal, wei kiat has finally ascended to another level in life; he got married, got himself a pretty wife, created a cosy nest which he can claim its he's, committed himself wholely and very willingly to a contract which we termed it as the certificate of marriage.

Oh boy! what a mess .. *smiles*

But then .. i'm very proud and happy to be part of his year long "marriage" masterplan. It has been a very fruitful year. It has been really a pleasure to be one of his foot soldiers; but i regret not being able to piece in the final jigsaw on the last day.

Thanks pal. I saw love, coming from almost an unlikely source - from you ~

Sheer hard work and 100% committed and whole-heartedly dedication. It is really a pleasure to be in your masterplan .. and you certainly bring "motherland" closer to "our land".

Cheers!

Contrastingly my childhood buddy, boon chen. lost his father to an accident. Our relationship is very tight and i'm like a family friend to him. that day or rather that fateful night, when his voice trembled a bit, he was speechless with shock almost unbelievable. His brother speak with tears and immersed sorrows - his dad left without his last words and he left without saying goodbye to all ..

My heart sank as it comes as to me like something impossible but it happened.

The party was something like a farewell night; 4 nights as a matter of fact. When babies were borned they cried, like in pain .. like lost in a foreign land (which i think it is), so it would be boon chen's wish that we sent his daddy off with smiles in our faces .. radical? unthoughtful? dis-respect?
But i thought it was a matured decision. Take care buddy! One day all of us will renuited there, just a matter of when, your dad just went there first.

Life has only just begun ..

My beautiful niece is now 5yrs old and coming to 6yrs old in another half a year's time. 5yrs back when she came back fresh from the hospital, i looked at the small young thing on my mum's bed and i smiled. i made a wish and i bless her like how a god would blessed on someone.

Never did i missed watching my niece grew up. from the day she smiles at us all, the day she learnt to clap her hand till the day she crawl, stand, walk and run then fall then stand up and then fall.

Till the day she finally know how to kiss my cheek when i carried her high in my arms. i have missed my youngest brother's and i would allow myself to missed it again.

Now, shes 5yrs old .. pretty young girl, chatty girl, abit of temper and bullying people; people like me.

*smiles*

At this juncture of life. I feel rejuvenated. My plans are on track again, and i can feel the momentum and if nothing goes wrong, i could be a very happy man in the next couple of years.

Sometimes. this why appears and sort of questions me. "what to do to prove my existence?", does it mean that achieving my goals, sitting on top and being the key person in my company can prove that i exist? i doubt so.

Oh well, again this is subjective. just some sharing. To each of its own. my preceived of existence differs from one to the another. Just some points to ponder on.

Some time ago this "friend" of mine shared his personal experience, whereby his love life is brought into his parents attention:

His mum asked him how come he didn't find himself a partner? And during festive season, his grandma also asked him, how come you don't have a partner? Then at workplace his colleagues also asked him the same question! Some even thought he was a freaking gay!!

He shared; sometimes he tried. but the better he wants to be the worst he become, and if he wants to be bad the better he becomes. Kind of ironic? but oh well, fate - period. He used to have a few girl friends, but suddenly all disappear and at the same time, as if all of them know one another.

Paranormal? i don't know, and he also wouldn't want to know. Love is like so near yet so far, can see but never can touch and feel.

All the best my "friend" ~

My luck has all been shifted into my job. All my prayers and blessings has been answered and i know i cannot ask for more. Love or not is not up to me and like my friend; leaving to fate is like very helpless but then .. so be it.

I'm blessed to have lots of nice friends and i think they're equally blessed as well.

*winks*

Okie .. love is all around for everyone!! I'm good !! I hope all my friends and people that i know and know me are as good as well.

Cheers ! (*smiles*)



" 我和你, 男和女都逃不过爱情 .. 也许因该放心让爱一步步靠近 " (有一点动心~)