April's Fool Love

Its April ..

This little place where i wrote about all my past, where wrote on things that i've see and felt, i wrote on people that came and passed .. my very memories.

but most importantly, i wrote on what is to come, the near future ..

and this place where i called it my emotional graveyard is fast coming to a year old.

I hate to, but i have to admit that, time is indeed passing at such a speed, which i'm getting a little bit fearful of what's coming in the near future.

After a painful and emotionally draining break-up, i've emerged a much stronger person. But overcoming certain realities then, is by no means an easy feat. But, im finally through.

For one whole year, i kept going back to the same place over and over again, just hoping to get a glimpse of what i hope to see. That figure .. that same person and that familiar face .. again.

well, after one full year, 365 days .. i did, finally. And what a joke that day was. A joke that gone too far on a fools day .. to a fool - like me.

If God existed ..

What comes round .. goes around. And after one full year, its finally a fullstop.

the final gift for me to her .. is my sincered blessing to her.

and well ...

People around me are getting more and more busier .. as we grow older, its a fact we have to accept.

I cannot expect friends to be around me 24/7 .. and met up as and when we want to.

Everyone's richer .. financially, but its vice-versa when it comes to emotionally.

In this hectic world. everyone one wants to make a mark for themselves, everyone wants to excel. Everyone has this passion to climb higher and higher.

I agree.

But, this same feeling always comes back haunting me .. is that feeling of loneliness

I guess many people has this same feeling ..

*sigh*

thinking back ..

When we guys were young, we would fantasized on pretty babes, with that slimed knock-out figure, the ample boobs and the sexy butt and it would be even prefect if she has a to-die-for looks accompanied with sexy full-kissable lips.

But as we grow older .. criteria changes ..

we need someone who we are comfortable with, we can confide to and someone who we know will always be there for us.

external beauty will slowly die off .. all good things will come to an end .. eventually.

This world is fair, and sometimes not fair.

but the truth is .. normally, we won't be together with the person we loved most. Simply put, that person you loved most won't neccssary be the one whom you will eventually get married to.

But look on the bright side, be with the person you can't live without is always better than being together with the one which you loved most .. isn't it?

but who says love is rational ? or even logical ?

and this probably explains why there's still no noble prize given for lovelogy yet.

But still .. though external beauty is not of utmost importance .. but i never say that it is not important .. i just said that it won't last forever..


*smiles* & *grins*


I guess we're all people seeking for love.

true love, i suppose.

but define true love? you know? i don't. really ..

but sometimes, procrastination comes in. What if im not ready?

mmm .. so when am i ready? who knows ..

and so .. will i be a burden to her and will she be a burden to me? who knows ..

yah .. so who knows? so when luck + preparation = .. opportunity

so ... when opportunity comes grabbed it.

Maybe you can say .. i'm desperate for love. But im not. its just that i think its time for me to look for it again.

Just like in the documentary .. where it showed the young lion, leaving his pride of lions family .. walking towards the unknown, looking forward to build his own pride of lion family.

It sure isn't gonna be an easy road .. there're bound to have scars along the way. The roads are bound to be bumpy and there are sure to have a lot of hurdles along the road.

But that's life.

the thing is .. we're all on the road, but unless we move, we're still on the road

and please watch out for those cars, if not you might met with an accident. and i will then, be faster than you.

haha ..

cheers~

" My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run

yeah .. it wears me out

if i could be who you wanted ..

all the time .. all the time .. "