about the girl he love

it's about a girl

he thought she was strong, but no, she hasn't been as strong as he thought she might have become to.

her tears still flow .. like small pearls flowing .. as it roll down, it sparkles with agony and much despair .. for he can feel.

why is she still in so much pain? why is she still so confused and still filled with fear?

there is so much thing hiding inside her .. she tried to seek a cure and she tried to make things better .. but all is only for a moment.

why are you still crying? why are you still in agony and filled with despair?

she is a lovely young girl .. she is seeking what all lady in this world is seeking for .. a place to hide when she's afraid, a place to harbour when she is tired and someone to care for her, to show concern upon her and to love her, that pure and that simple ..

but the world isn't that fair sometimes.

she knows it and i think she understands this reality very well.

she try to seek love .. but sometimes, things may get a little upset, sometimes.

but, isnt it better to be loved than to love?

to be loved.. isnt it the best feeling in this world? or apparently it's not?

she kept appearing in his dreams. and he don't know why, but we, chinese believed that when you're always thinking of someone in the day, most probably you would dream of her in the night.

and she's still that same angelic pretty cute girl whenever she appeared in his dream. its magical and wonderful .. she still looks radiant

and he knows that she knows.

the girl .. she knows that, he is always here waiting.. and she knows that he is talking to her.

she knows.

but she's not reciprocating..

she knows that he still love her.

but why is she still seeking for love?

isn't it better to be loved by someone than to love someone ... isn't it?

but why?

she knows that he is listening to all the words she spoke.

she knows all this..

she once told him that once the flower has wither and it can never be regrown again in the same spot, but to a different spot.

but does she know that that old spot is once again much fertile and nurturing to be a good soil once more?
it has become more fertile and more nourished as before .. waiting for the flower to come and grow to a even stronger and more attractive flower.

if the other spot is no more fertile, and the flower has to be battered by strong wind and harsh weather..

it is willing to compete with the best soil in the world, it is willing to be more fertile than the best soil in the world and it is willing to make itself into the best nursery in the world just for this pretty flower to grow ..

would the flower please come back? he wonder.

but he knows that he cannot give her promises anymore.. but actions to justify his words.

actions to prove what he meant.

bcos he knows the fear of losing something important, and now he knows what is important and what is not.

naived, he has proved that he once was. for humble goes a long way..

and all this he has learnt and taught him to grow up and to be a better man.

while losing is more painful and more hurtful than any other thing else ..

it is losing the one when you thought she isnt all, but after losing it then you realised that she's everything.. it is as devastating as any disaster in the world.

he lost her and he really regret and with much despair, he hope he can really do something to have her back.

he hoped that she will know ..

months ago, he gave her a chance .. she told him to.

but time has passed ..

now, he hoped that she can give him this precious chance once more.

and he hope one day, she can see him standing right in front of her.

smiling and telling her its alright .. everything is nothing but a nightmare. and she can thus rest in his arms.

if she is to get hurt, may her share with him.

if she is to feel pain, may her spilt it with him.

and if she is to be loved.

let him .. be the one to love her..

he has walked the beginning passage stage of life with her before, and he hope he can walk the next final half passage of life with her forever ..

he hope she knows..

to the girl, he love.

he would hope you know ..

cos heaven knows ..