hush hush ... don't cry please

She moved her shoulders as her back turned .. her face was turned away from him, tilte to an angle. Suddenly, her movement stops and she starts to shiver a bit. she looks uncomfortable, her hair covering her petite face, she seems in distress and is avoiding all means of eye contact.

she seems upset, she seems sad .. probably she is not happy, and why won't she say anything?

he went over .. she turned around ..

she is upset and her face was wet.

The once pretty round petite cute cheeks is now filled up by rosy red colour, the cute little small nose he once praised her for, has shrunk down to little cherry-like small ..

he couldn't bear to look further .. her tried to hold her .. he tried to cuddle her rosy cheeks .. it was warm, it is moist and he can feel the tremor on her smooth rosy moist cheek..

as she try to speak .. beads of pearly little tears roll down her cheeks, it was warm, he can feel it in his hands..

she stummer and she murmured. her voice was unclear. she tried to speak .. but as she starts, gush of tsunami like waves of tears kept rushing out and rolling over the pearls of tears, into a wave of tears, following the contour of her cheek and down to his hands..

he looked.. her eyes sparkle .. and with tears.

she is crying.
she is trying to speak

to him ...

her voice was filled with agony .. a lot of disappointment and sadness.

"hush .. hush .. darling, please dont cry .. please" he plead

never he wanted her to be in such agony and sorrow .. never!
never he wanted her to feel disappointment and in such anguish .. never!

he never wanted her to be in misery and to get hurt in such a manner.

he hold her. her hands, he placed his on hers.
and it was an assurance. to her .. from him ..

"hush hush .. darling, im wrong. dont cry. sorry."
this guy, he is also in as much misery as her .. how he wish time could turn, and he can bear all misery from her, shouldering all suffering to be brought on her, upon him

the last thing he would want to see is tear in her eyes .. if there would be any, it would be of joy.

and he felt salt in his mouth, he felt water, he taste salt .. he felt warm, his face swollen in red and something is rolling down his face.

his eyes too .. sparkles.

he felt her .. he felt the pain.. the misery .. the agony ..

and well

time passed.

days passed and she has grown from strength to strength. the once pearly tears is not in free-flowing mode anymore.

and from far .. he looked at her now. and not once he dared to look from near.

there is a smile on his face ..

happy .. that she now is not a strong girl anymore, but is a stronger woman. and yes, a much tougher and stronger woman.

i remember .. O-Lan, someone i read before .. he hope she is like her, that tough now.

while .. hush hush don't cry ..

is but a thing of the past ....