love stories

time .. is really running faster than i can recall it

tickling and tickling away .. very fast

well, sometimes, i still feel lonely and alone .. but at least, its not here to stay anymore. however, the memories are .. and will always be

when i want words of comfort .. i will speak to my friends, and they will talk tales to me.. tales of stories of love..

there is one story which i felt very comforting when it's being spoke of ..
To find the girl he love, so much .. he travelled across the globe to find her, he knows nothing else as he stepped out of the airport, onto the land of strangers .. other than the name of the country ..
and he would tell me how he would endured the freezing bitter coldness, even with the thick winter clothes on. he could still felt the cold.

and i know and he knows it is not the physical cold which is painful. but, of what the one he love so much did to him .. thats unbearably pain.

i know that sometimes, people do make mistakes .. but sometimes, things are too late, too late to do anything about it anymore .. and in this case, love is blind.

and he would told me about the same old snow track, he would walk miles to find her, and he would tell me in the lonely hotel room, he would gaze at the empty space with the cigarette on his hand and with tears of despair in his eyes.

and he would sit and pray at the ancient old cathedral ..

pray and hope ..

but it never came.

and i understood that helpless feeling very well ..

and there is another story .. unfortunately a sad one again ..

it could be fate or probably destiny or maybe GOD's will, this lady, he would love so much, very much i guess .. and sometimes it makes you wonder if its good or bad.
for a couple of years, they are together. and probably, he may not know that this girl isnt ready to be serious yet .. or is she?

and to the day when they end everything .. for the girl choose the other ship while she is still cruising on this ship.

and he was so depressed. he would locked himself in the room and isolate himself from the world. and everything seems pointless and meaningless .. sad to say, he tried to seek the "easy way" but .. fortunately, his lucky stars are shining super bright on him.
and that was a few years back ..

i used to wonder why such a promising young lad, neither is he poor nor is he an ugly man .. i would wonder why would he allowed himself to be so attached to just one? ..

at least after so long .. i finally know the answer

and there is one more which i know, the girl told him .. to quit his studies, if they are to have another chance to be together again..

which i think is totally absurb ..

and the lady's rational is .. so that he can prove to her that he is 100% committed and so that he can earn more money for a better future together.

and i think .. it totally doesnt make any sense to me .. pure nonsense, childish and bullshit.

and i remember i have a friend, a lady friend who shared with me hers ..

her guy has a lower educational level as compared to hers, as she is a U grad and he is a ITE certificate holder .. and also his job is not as "glamorous" as hers ..

and so, she told me this ..

" if i am up at level 8, i don't mind lowering 2 level to level 6, but is he going up 2 levels to meet with me? i need to feel secure if i were to have a future with him. But here, i'm not being materialistic but rather practical, bcos this is the reality! And if he is not willing to up 2 level at least, then i would have to re-think about our future."

till now, i wish them all the best ..

sounds cruel? but i think its nothing but the truth .. i won't blame the girl.

the reason, is crystal clear ..

through these stories i found comfort .. through experiences i learn .. and it is only when i open my mouth and ask, then i know that i am not the only desperate and hopeless chap around.

just yesterday, i can still remember the cute face of the little girl who knock onto me at the shopping centre ..

she looks adorable .. and she really makes me feel like having a family and born a baby girl with someone, sometime down the road ..

however, as cute as a child might be, she is only cute if she is other people's child ..

sounds funny huh? just think again ..

the reality is cruel but true .. time is really tickling away fast .. sometimes, i really miss somethings, but sometimes .. i guess, well, perhaps just wait and see how ..

treasure what we have, is important .. really


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