生日快乐

did you receive the book on what-to-do for dummies?

did you? i dont.

*smile*

when i was a much younger chap, no one really told me the benefits of studying hard and getting a good qualification.

what people said then, was, it's for your own good.

very vague.

while some people did heed the advice blindly or maybe they do really know.

dad and mom, they too, also preach to you the benefits of studies. but during that time, we all know too well .. when in school, dad and mom are definitely out of the picture .. and never they should be in it.

teachers are just like salesperson, who are always trying to sell to you their idea.

but are we too young to understand their proposal?

or do they have the what-to-do book for dummies? and we dont?

well ..

growing a little older .. you know this friends and you know that friends.

but having friends are more than just happy being together and having fun together. there will always be a hidden agenda behind the happy scenes and the happy hour.

probably, wise people who saw it have told you, these friends are more than just friends, chances are, some may lead you to the wrong side of the road of life. while some are good, some are bad.

but then, who actually did heed these "wise" people's advice? again, some did, but most .. dont.

well, do we actually have the what-to-do book for dummies? or maybe even a how-to-do book for dummies.

apparently, we dont.

or these books dont really exist?

everyone do have a lot of friends. but like fine wine and distilled water, you need to really filter them and distilled it properly, before you can get the best quality.

but that time, we dont. say blind, if you would like to ..

ahh .. so much for growing up ..

soon soon, after so much effort, you are together with the girl.

at first glance, she's the hottest girl. she had the most beautiful smile you ever seen, her eyes sparkles as she smiled.

yeah, the hottest girl.

and the best thing is she's with you or maybe she has "agreed" to be with you, or maybe you had her "hooked".

well.

but then, along the way, things goes wrong. and things started to break out and things doesnt seems to be going very well.

you tried using your way, and she tried using her way.

but it just makes matter worse.

then you tried to get help or advice and she also tried to get help or advice.

but still it doesnt go well .. isnt it?

well, during this tough period, sometimes, isnt it good to have a what-to-do book, whereby, you just flipped through the pages and there is your answer?

isnt it wonderful?

you and her can then live happily ever after.

*smile*

Today is my birthday.

and as i tried to reflect all these years .. definitely there're regrets which i had along the way, and there are also real sweet moments which i will never forget.

but these are only memories or maybe its just lesson learnt in life.

sometimes, i think, if we have these what-to-do books and how-to-do books, then life will be much more easier, where under different circumstances, all we need to do is just to open up the book, read then apply.

easy?

but life doesnt work this way.

its more than just facing adversities open up a book read and apply.

life is a journey.

whatever we faced, is different, it differs from one person to the another.

well, in fact, that what-to-do and how-to-do book.. DO existed

it existed inside us, everyone of us.

*smile*

well, i'm glad. after going through various phases in life, i've learnt and gain alot. and it just makes me feel more "educated" and more confident. Life has never felt so good before.

i guess .. haha

Life is never controlled by a crystal ball. but rather in our hands.

mmmm....

and its now evening time, the sun has set. the two birds just flew past my eyesight, back home., probably. and the cars on the road increases. the buses are just filled with lots of tired people.

and its another day.

and the sky just feels so lazy, not busy.

and a birthday is just like any other day.

*smile*


6th Feb 1983, Kandang Kerbau Hospital, Noon - Breezy

" I saw the chubby baby, with his eyes closed, covered with white cotton cloth. He was sleeping soundly. Suddenly, i heard a loud thump thump sound. I looked, but no one. The loud footstep's echo filled the corridor, what a rush .. i thought.
Then, the nurse came, as she slowly pushed the cradle, the one that the baby boy is sleeping on. The nurse gave me a smile, as i watched the baby who gave a little yawn.
As she pushed the cradle along the long dark corridor, filled with the strong scent of medicine. Slowly her figure fade away...
Then i saw this 26 yr old man wearing spectacle, in a rush. as he looked at me gasping for air, before heading the direction, where the nurse went to.
The same thump thump heavy footstep filled the dark corridor as he disappeared, and i am left stranded there.

As i made my way, back to where i belong.. i smiled.

It's your birthday .. Bryan "