a month to remember

that day i stood and look into the morning city skies.

i saw that beautiful baby blue .. that golden sun ray which flickers and shone upon this land.

i still feel that same old breeze, cold yet cosy .. as it brushes across my cheek.

the wind is strong .. that big white cloud hanging upon the sky.

i felt life.

i felt a huge momentum.

as if its telling me .. life goes on

it is so great that, everyone will be carried by this great force.

and yes ...

life goes on.

*smile* its a wonderful day!

i felt good. this year, wonderful things has happened to me. but sadly, love hasnt came yet. which is a bliss, for i am not prepared for it .. as for now, i mean.

this month, i gave my blessing to a friend. one of my good friend. in his late twenties, he finally decided to tie the knot.

and he gave me just a month's notice. it certainly came as a surprise!

i asked him whether is he a marksman? he smiled at me and say no. and i smiled back at him and said i know.

the baby is due 2007 Aug ..

and this month, i finally overcome two long overdue to-do-item, which i kept procastinating. for one i took a step towards driving a continental car.

and the other one, happened after an amusing incident .. that day, my friend. a rather plump fellow said that he has a nicer body than me. i wasnt angry but i'm shocked.

well, you need the skin of an elephant to said that don't you?

but i was quite irritated. so i decided to do justice to myself. and i came up with a 3/week keep fit regime .. which i religiously followed.

though its hard work, but the result shows .. so sometimes, magazine do tell facts after all!

and this month, i got to know some new friends .. and saw some really old friends, which appeared after an absence of several years.

i welcome back these old friends.

it was really those days .. where we were at the wrong side at the path of life.

those days .. we're young, its hard to differential right and wrong. but somehow, mother life took mercy of us. she brought us back .. rightfully to where we should be.

its through those days that, we learned right or wrong ..

and if you think that you're bigger than the world .. then one day, the world will devour you .. bit by bit and pieces by pieces.

this world shows no mercy.

hope it don't sounds too serious ?

anyway ..

as im gathering my thoughts to summarize this pretty good month .. i looked out at the night skies .. i saw the city, and i felt the cold night breeze.

there was no movement. except for the twinkering stars. the clouds aint moving. the moon aint smiling at you.

it was stale. it was dead. dead quiet too.

i know that the momentum has stopped. it can't possibly go on and on without a break. this force is so great that it can kill anyone who is totally immersed in the momentum.

night is always so lonely .. isnt it ?

only night gives us a chance to be personal .. to be alone

and to reflect for the day, to savour good old memories and to look forward to the future.

i'm happy with the present and im looking forward with much enthusiasm .. as for the past, whats gone has gone. even if it comes back, it is just a survival mechanism gone wrong .. life shouldnt work this way.

lets just let it be.

of cos, there some people which i would like to know much better, but as for now .. mmm

before the end of this month, i watched a movie.

simple love. simple two people. though its simple. but at the end. its still simply, two person.

procastination i guess ..

at the end. the guy died and the girl is still clinging on the love.

which exist .. or never existed.

but still ... i would remember that movie again. where, after losing that person, then you know that, that person is the one you really loved. but all is but too late...

and to whom to confess this pain to?

well, movie of cos doesn't really reflect reality.

you can wait .. but how long? what if it never comes? everybody needs to be given a chance. including you.

to be loved by someone is always the greatest feeling. but how many of us can actually have the luxury of marrying the one we really love?

hard to say huh~ thats what makes life so interesting isnt it?

and women are so fasinating creature .. and thats why being a man is so interesting too!

*smile*

remembering our own birthday is sometimes, frustrating.

looking at the people around you. my dear niece is 3 years old, shes big, chubby and cute and loves me to pat her to bed.
looking at my friends, getting married becoming fathers, embarking on new careers, it all just makes me feel that ..

im kinda old.

not very old, but old.

doesnt make sense? nevermind.

anyway, Happy Birthday to me.

"Happy Birthday to those whose birthday falls within this year too!!"