a resolution

a happy new year to everyone out there ..

hope you enjoy your celebrations .. every 31 Dec is the same, nothing special. Its just that the next day is a new year, which is end of 365 calender days or maybe 366 days ?

but lets side track a little .. it also means planet earth has orbit the sun 1 round ..

ok, that is just some things to ponder about ..

anyway, to welcome this year .. i had change my template to a brighter colour .. gone is the classic black and red combination, which signifies mysterious and that color combo is a bit mood arousing ..

anyway, it also means that i am done with all the mourning and gone are the stormy clouds and out comes the warm and cosy sun.

the colour of dawn is always streaks of orange. and the color orange it will be. the mood i am now.

the beginning of a new day, a new year and a new life.

where were you when thousands and thousands of people were flooding the streets, with their love ones and with their best pals celebrating the beginning of a new year.

as the countdown begins .. 3 .. 2 .. then 1, where were you?

as i watch the fireworks display upon the clear skies .. as they burst into colourful streaks of rainbow colours .. i felt peace and i feel happy.

2006 was terrible, i fall so hard that i cannot stand by myself .. Mr Reality came to check, i failed so badly and he knocked me down .. hard.

looking at the thousands of people around me .. celebrating this joyous day, i kinda felt that everyone is just like me. hoping for a better tomorrow.

hoping they can love their love ones more .. hope that they will strive hard for a better life .. hope that God will bless their love ones .. hope and hope .. hoping that everything will be better than last year.

never before i felt so hopeful for a year .. throughout my 20 odd years, this year .. i felt something great is going to happen.

i got this gut that all will begin starting from this year ..

i never felt so confident before ..

mm .. maybe its b'cos, i fell so hard that i've come back many times stronger ..

what else can be more painful than losing the one you really love .. and what supportive force can be so strong other than the support from your own family's love?

nothing.

so .. what is cruelty from the outside world?

anyway, last year i am contemplating between the battle of Jerk vs Nice guy.

why jerks always gets the babe and why nice guy always lose out to freaking jerks. i took on the theory of men from mars and women from venus, i went back to my cave and think through.

though i may not be an expert, but somehow, i got some clue here.

most males are brought up by mother .. and when choosing a partner, us, men, tend to look upon our mums as role model or rather an example or listen to mum's advice. BUT, hey, treating the girl you love and your mother is 2 TOTAL DIFFERENT THING! and how i wish i was brought up by my dad.

a women's natural instinct towards a man when she has the man is to take TOTAL CONTROL over the men, BUT, what a men MUST DO, is NEVER LET THE LADY TAKE TOTAL CONTROL over you.
and thats where the nice guy will always lose out to the jerks.

well, its not women's fault .. but its just their women's instinct.

a yes, yes and yes guy will die faster and in case you wonder why this kinda guy is deem not fun. maybe, the above findings do shed some light.

anyway, since both men & women came from different planets and not all women are the same, it differs from one to the another ..

so .. keep on learning.

i don't know if all sounds familiar to you, but it certainly is, to me.

*smile*

and the last thing or the last point i would want to share is a wise phrase which i read.

"As a man, you have to die once in order to live." I never fully appreciated this advice, nor did I understand it until I experienced it firsthand.

but be thankful to the lady who left, cause now, you're fully armed.

to me .. love is still wonderful. and i will always remember my friend said this to me ..

"There's nothing i can give her, other than my quality time and attention, if she chose to leave, then there's nothing more i can do."

it wakes me up .. indeed. QUALITY vs QUANTITY

but somehow or rather, as i said before, in this game of love, there is only one parachute, when everything goes wrong, only one gets to survive.

okay, so much for love .. and thats what meloveworld is all about .. me, myself .. my love life and the world, im looking forward to.

Lastly .. on resolutions

though i may seem to have drawn further & further away from someone else ... probably a New Year Resolution is not to draw closer to her.

bcos, she has gone further and further away. i really can see her no more.

though i held her hand, but its cold. though i saw the smile, but its not that sweet smile anymore.

everything, i have .. memories, i've already kept them inside me, all 36 stories for her,and the door is closed but not locked.

as what i like to say to her .. its all God's will .. and its a small world after all, isnt it? the earth is round. whatever will be will be. theres already nothing else, i could wish for.

the earth is round, if we will met one day, we will. if not .. then, lets just be 2 dots on this planet.

*smile*

and i have no resolution for this year.

and this year.. im finally back~!

' 苦海翻起爱浪
在世间难逃避命运
相亲竟不可接近
或我应该相信是缘份'

as i stood upon the tall cliff, high above angry waters and stormy waves. i looked at the rising sun creeping up the horizon .. with colourful dawn lights, it coloured the thick grey clouds orange. as the warm and cosy breeze, gently blew across my face.

i saw light .. and this time its real

and life has just only begun ..