road of life or waiting

The road was long, full of bends and curves and entrances and exits. The surface was bumpy and full of potholes, it was windy and cold, it was not an easy task to walk along this road.

there was no ending to this road. the front was always another horizon. while sometimes clear and sometimes hazy. it's so hard to see whats ahead.

there are no signs to tell you where you are and worst still there are no lights to lead you the way, other than in the day, the sunlight, and in the night, the mellow moonlightings.

walking along this road was never easy.

it used to be with my friends. helping one another, cheering one another. we walked this road. we endure and we perservere together.

we share many memories, good or bad. and it makes walking more interesting and meaningful. and those were my friends. really good people.

and then one day ..

it was a bit better than walking with friends. it was walking but in a slower pace, it was more like a stroll. we enjoyed the scenery, we enjoy talking about what we see and most importantly we enjoy one another's company.

the bumpy road was not bumpy anymore, together we sheltered from the strong wind, together we walk along the bends and we walk around the curve ..

and the best of all .. we saw light at the horizon. a bright light..

a future .. perhaps?

though along the road, there might be arguements & quarrels on where to go to, it is an exit? or to go to another entrance? or should we speed up a little? or should we slow down a little?

but it was more or less of a normal thing.

till one day..

where we reached a crossroad. there was an agruement. a big one.
while she know she wanted to turn left and it was all in her mind.

she let off my hand and turn left. sensing that i would never ever turn left with her. and she run ... run .. run. untll i could see her no more.
im lost and she is also lost from my sight.

i'm jammed in a daze and at a crossroad. and walking this road seems meaningless.

what's next for me?

for i am once again walking along this road .. and yes ..
well, alone.

*smile*

however, my friends caught up with me. they give me a pat on the back, and say, to me " its ok, don't worry, we will walk with you. come, don't brood, lets move on. "

i was touched. i became emotional and i cried.

they tell me it was alrite. but again, they tell me. after you had cried. be done with it. and move on. and this time round. we wont be strolling but .. we will walk faster. we have to be faster than the others.

and from there.. i became stronger.. and we walk many miles from there onwards.

and well, time sure flies ..

though we may be walking on different streets but we're still on the same road.

but ..

someday, i wouldnt mind walking a bit slower ..
someday, i really wouldn't mind crossing over maybe ten streets or twenty streets just to see her
someday, i don't really mind changing the way how i walk
someday, i really don't mind carrying her and i endure all the pain

i really don't mind walking the way how she would walk the road.
i really don't.

and again .. thats someday.

In this road of life..
everyone is walking, while some are running, running ahead of others.
while some are just contented with life and they stroll, knowing that at the end of the road, everyone will just be there.

but i want to run faster than others. i want to be ahead of many many people.
i want to be able to stroll and enjoy the scenery after running much faster than all the people and after running ahead of millions and millions of people.

However ..

i'm willing to slow down and cross over to the other street.

i'm willing to stop, wipe my sweat and smile and say hi.

but again .. will this someone come and say to me .. " hey hi! how are u? why are you doing here? come, lets move on together."

when? someday ?

and are we turning left again? will there be another entrance?

if there is .. i won't mind!


*smile*