fate & destiny

sometimes.. while taking the MRT or bus. you look around. and HEY! you saw this person, well, not bad looking. what luck you thought to yourself.

you look at the time. probably tomorrow when i take this train at this time, this carriage, i maybe able to see her/him.

and you smile to yourself. *smile*

and the next day .. you follow your schedule.. same time, same train, same carriage.
but different people, different feelings. as expected. she/he is not there.

maybe you would sigh and look out to the sky. *haiz*

and most probably you would ask yourself... whats fate? whats destiny? but nevermind. maybe whats yours is yours and if it does happen thats fate. but if it doesnt then .. its destiny. destined to be.

I walk along a long empty path way .. beside the river beside esplanade.

I can't help but to stop and look at the skies.

there're hundreds of people around me. but i felt im just in my own private space. and soon..

my memories flooded me..

i remember there was once. i'm locked to the outside world. but then someone came in and unlocked everything.

someone came and bring happiness to every corner in me. unlocked every doors i have.

then .. someone just left and leave all the doors open .. but just locked the front door, and left the key in front of the door. and my memories just stood at there..

i don't know whether did someone duplicate a return spare key? well, most probably, someone just left the key and left in a hassle. most likely thats the case.

and i don't know. really..

probably the past has come back again .. i dont know why .. its kinda scary but .. i also dont know why. loneliness again? yes?

*frown*

yes, someone's special .. i never lie, i never lie on anything about someone. yes, someone hurt me and left plenty behind. but i never harbour hate. i just put all my stakes on love. love for myself. love to hope .. and love to look at the skies.

*sigh*

as i look up to the skies. the blue sky with shady streaks of orange, yellow & red above the horizon. it's so beautiful. and on the river, a perfect carbon-copy of this beautiful image.

then a vehicle driving past the bridge. and this could be the last time, i would see this vehicle passing the bridge.. probably.

this flcok of birds flying across the skies, behind a picture of the tall majestic skyscrapers. flying over beautiful sunset.

the street lights, uniformly, started to light up. and there's Mr Moon, appearing. smiling at me behind the tall skyscraper.

and yes, a day has ended.

well, i still don't know whats fate & destiny. but i'm grateful to someone who has come and left a lot of things inside me. but i don't think thats enough. but what to do?

and this would probably be the last time.. i would do a "open-house", ever again..

and probably fate is just like sitting on a kerb, looking and just waiting for someone to come again. while destiny is probably when someone comes along, and you decide to end this waiting game and quit this game for this someone.

and again, i remember, seeing the sunrise, and there's a plane rising higher and higher beyond the horizon.. and the morning train, across this beautiful picture.

and yes. its again .. a new day.

and now, im a follower of fate and a believer of destiny.
mmm.. what a joke huh?

fate & destiny?

* joke? is it?